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Which Positive Quality Are You?
Your Result: Love

You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."

Which Positive Quality Are You?
You Are 42% Strange!

You are a bit strange, though still more normal than strange. You definitely have some quirks, don't get me wrong. But you aren't exactly freaking out old ladies on the street. It's okay though, you've got a healthy mixture of strangeness and normality.

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You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,

beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home

decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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I want to post more often :(. And I want to do more crap around my house but neither seems extremely likely to happen anytime soon. Hrmmm......


~Don’t let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold~
Incubus – the Warmth

How is it possible to always hope to see the best in people and yet always feel somehow let down by people? I think about the last year and I just remember some of the little disappointments (not little in the sense of how they hurt me or bothered me, but I guess little in the sense of how little they matter now). Things like someone making a promise to do something for you and then not being there and leaving you stranded somewhere for hours. Or a friend who takes you off their friends list without giving you much reason as to why? Or when someone leaves, like moves out of state, and doesn’t even say good bye to you when they do. I’m kind of tired of feeling so let down. I think I liked it better when I never let anybody in. I guess the real answer is, that people only let you down, when you let them. /sigh
Why does it always feel like it's my place to rescue and take care of other people? I usually don't mind, I love helping people and I'm protective of my friends. I guess I just sometimes wish someone would come rescue me once in awhile.

I'm also tired of trying to save people from themselves -.-. If I'm watching my friends burn bridges, I usually stand on the bridge trying to save them. Kind of sucks when the bridge burns with you on it. I feel like I'm falling /sigh.

Meh I just need to stay out of things and let people take care of stuff on their own and in their own time and own ways.

I need to learn to let people go. I guess I just get so afraid of being alone all the time, that I hold on so hard to the people I care about. I need to learn to let go. People have left before and they leave now and I'm sure they'll leave in the future. And I've been ok without them. I'm ok, I'm really ok..

I'm absolutely addicted to Postsecret. I go there every week. Some of the postcards make me laugh, some of them make me cry. Some make me feel not so alone and some make me feel more alone!

I guess the above postcard fits into the cry category. It just reminded me that I can't remember the last time someone told me they loved me. My parents hardly ever tell me they love me. Don't get me wrong, I know they do love me. I know with an absolute certainty that they do. I guess sometimes it'd just be nice to actually hear it from someone. To actually hear "I love you" from another human being and for someone to actually hug you and mean it... I don't get hugged very often these days either. I used to when I was in theater, I used to a lot. And I think I miss that.

I guess most of all I'm just a bit lonely. I'm 26 and nobody has ever loved me. And I've never loved someone myself, not really. I thought I did a few times, but when it's all said and done illusions are easy to see through after the dust has settled. I don't really understand it, but in some ways I'm ok with being alone, but I'm also sad that nobody has ever loved me. /sigh. ah well
~Say when you're alone
Its better cause nobody knows you
When no one's your friend
It's better cause nobody leaves you
So you turned your back
On a world that you could never have
cause your hearts been cracked
And everyone else is goin mad~

Wallflowers - I Wish I Felt Nothing
I'm so pissed off at the world today... I hate being in this kind of mood! I don't know if it's just because I haven't been getting much sleep this week or what. But I'm all irritable and annoyed :P

Apr. 11th, 2007

does life ever get any better or is it pretty much always shitty? lol


silverdragon [darkhavens]

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